I have finally reached my latest goal of 800 posts. With this post being post 801.
With every goal that I have set out for myself with this blog I have managed to accomplish them all.
I wasn’t sure exactly what I would do next when I had gotten this far.
This is definitely something to celebrate, but as you get further into this post it might be a bit sad or not because it will depend completely on your point of view. At this point you might want to get something to eat and/or drink, get comfortable and then read when you are ready.
How about as brief of a history of about this blog and myself, as I can try to make it.
For any regular reader this will be old news, I understand if you decide to skip this section.
Before starting Words From The Heretic or blogging for that matter I had gone through a lot of changes in my personal life. Losing our house, losing my job, quitting a band I no longer enjoyed being and trying to keep those I felt were poison to be around. Needless to say I wasn’t feeling overly positive or fun to be around. I was feeling angry, bitter, depressed, frustrated, sick, and irritated. Being around and going through a lot of this just made me a bit crazy and probably a bit hard for my family to deal with, although I cannot vouch since I have never asked them. I just felt socially awkward to the point that I pretty much internalized everything (I still do to some degree), and just kept to myself. Unfortunately when the proverbial dust had settled I had no friends, no collaborators, no one outside of my family to interact with socially. I’m not sure if strung-out would be the correct term, but it is what I felt.
One thing that I will not hide is that I am opinionated, but I think in all honesty humans are opinionated whether they want to admit it or not. That is just how we are wired as a species. At times being opinionated can lead to some negative reactions. It will also make most people not want to be around you.
Unlike most people I don’t drink, don’t smoke, never did drugs nor were interested, nor do I make it a point to try too “hook up” with someone for the purpose of using them. That isn’t how I work or how I am.
I originally started this blog in 2009. Although at the time I originally had the blog hosted on Blogger, but when I first opened it all I had was the name for the blog. I chose to use a pseudonym not so much to be another sock-puppet but to retain my anonymity, even though a few of my fellow bloggers know only my first name. I didn’t have any content and I wasn’t sure exactly what I wanted to write about. It actually took me a year before I had an idea of what I wanted and started writing anything.
A year later I had an idea of what I wanted to do with this new blog that I had just created prior. I wanted to talk about the things that I like and keep me positive, but I also wanted it to be a bit of an experiment to myself. I wanted to see whether or not there were those who enjoyed the same things as I do who were different than myself. I wanted to see if people from all walks of life, in the same part and different parts of the world enjoyed the same things that I enjoyed. Because as Henry Rollins had once said; It is hard to want to throw stones back and forth at someone who likes the same things as you do.
Before writing I had heard of WordPress from word of mouth. I was interested because I wasn’t liking Blogger’s interface all that much, although I did check other possible sites. I went with WordPress after a while because the interface was easy to use, I prefer simplicity. Plus the site made it easy to transfer my blog to its new home. Once everything was up and ready I set to task.
My first official post was in 2010.
I decided that initially I would have a set of goals for every one hundred posts that I would reach. With each goal achieved I would expand the blog more. Initially I didn’t have any sections or subsections until I reached a few of my goals and I added sections, a couple of which stemmed from a series of posts. Like Chocoholotastic which started life in Welcome To My Geekmare. Over the years some sections have been staples for the blog and some weren’t all that successful so I chose to close them.
I still had some things to work out about myself but through Words From The Heretic I managed to curve myself a bit away from the negative things. This isn’t to say I am over it or completely healed or whatever, it is still something that is part of me but I have found a way to help keep it in check and not have it take over me. Which at times leads me to take a while to write a post because I will self-censor things that I don’t feel are positive, but this isn’t to say that the opinionated things were gone. It is just how I am.
It was great to see fellow bloggers, readers, and people from all walks of life begin to like comment, sometimes repost some of my content. As well as interacting and getting to know the little that I did about those who came around to WFTH and also from visiting the blogs of other bloggers and doing the same.
After a while I was given the opportunity to finally go to college for the first time in my life. While attending and studying I chose to not let anything distract me. So I stopped blogging, playing video games, watching shows, save for recording an audio diary on a separate blog. I only would come back to blog between semesters. I am still thankful to my family and fellow bloggers for being very supportive. When I had graduated and received my degree/certificate I was proud, plus couldn’t wait to use what I had learned to hopefully get somewhere in life.
I also had hoped to return to more blogging.
Unfortunately things had kind of changed for me personally.
Although I haven’t managed to get to where I need to be with what I have learned in college or want to do in life, I decided to keep myself and my mind busy. Trying to stay productive. I revamped my podcast, worked on projects both musical and regular audio to keep myself in practice, job-hunting, idea collecting, and various other things I right now only have plans to do. Unfortunately this has been leaving me stretched thin. It is why, for a while, I have been really slow to post anything on this blog.
Which leads me to my decision.
After this post I will stop writing posts for Words From The Heretic.
This wasn’t the easiest decision for me to make because I love working on this blog, especially for the fact that it is my first blog. It is the first project in my life that was successful in what I had set out to do with it. It is the first project to give me the much needed positivity that I desperately needed and wanted, and to send that positivity back out.
I chose to finish out the remaining posts, reach 800, and to give the blog another moment of positivity before I stop writing for it.
I did contemplate monetizing or using Patreon for the blog, but chose against it since I don’t know if WordPress allows it or requires me to have to move the entire blog to separate server. The other reason I chose not to go this route with Words From The Heretic is because I feel this would be disingenuous and totally render the point of the blog to something cheap and meaningless. It just wouldn’t feel right to me.
This doesn’t mean I will close the blog down, delete the page, or any of that.
I may not generate a large amount of traffic for Words From The Heretic, but I enjoy knowing that people are seeing, reading, and enjoying what I have written, because it is something that I may have in common with everyone. From a movie we both like to a really good book, a fun board or card game, video game, and awesome show, that one group or album that you might know or may have forgotten about. That is what really matters to me.
I love that WordPress has made it easy to have my content stretch across other places like Tumblr, Twitter, and more. It makes me appreciate that there is more than one avenue to reach people.
This doesn’t mean I may not come back and write on Words From The Heretic again, but for now I will be stopping for a while. How long? I don’t know. I cannot say because like with anything in life there might be a chance I do not come back or I might come back. I cannot say because I cannot predict the future.
This doesn’t mean I will stop blogging all together either. I still have my other blog (Ocular) which I will post on from time to time, but it won’t have the same frequency.
You can also catch me on my podcast, which I won’t advertise here because I prefer people to discover it on their own. I prefer it this way because I would like people to have the decision of listening or not without me trying to coerce them.
I would say this is a closing of a chapter, but I don’t feel that analogy is correct. I feel that I have built a lighthouse for shared positivity and that I am finally placing the light into the beacon and turning it on to guide those who want to see if they share the same enjoyment for the things that I enjoy and have written about.
For those of you coming to the blog for the very first time and chiming in with your enjoyment for the things I have written about I apologize, but this has been a decision that has been a long time coming.
Thank you for your time, eyes, as well as for making this experiment a triumph.
To my fellow bloggers thank you for reading my content and for allowing me to read your content as well.